An Open Letter to the GSA (Girl Scouts of America)
Hello, Girl Scouts of America. Hello, world. Ever since I worked for the Girl Scouts of Eastern Pennsylvania back in 2015, a heavy weight has been pressing on my heart and mind. It has caused me to lose sleep and obsess in this way that one obsesses when they feel they face a large mountain and no rope.
Well, no more. Let this post flow ~ with no attachment to outcome
~Whether it reaches the scope of an audience I want it to, or it doesn't.
When I worked for Camp Laughing Waters in 2015, I received a shock that became heartbreak and then simply illness and a sense of guilt. This camp served hundreds of girls each week, and at each and every meal it was feeding the campers and staff stuff that looked like food, it kind of smelled like food, but it was most certainly not food. And the water was poison.
This isn't a unique situation for Camp Laughing Waters. This is the state of reality in public schools, camps, and other programs all across America. We are victims of our food system and industries that rape the earth for her materials, and we are allowing corporations to poison us and our kids.
This affects ALL children, and it affects all adults. It doesn't matter where you come from in regards to this, because it affects you all the same. We are all equally impacted by this. And people who have trauma already that is not healed, it can be even worse. It is time to elect a leader who will put a stop to Fracking.
I am highly sensitive to whatever I put into my body. It was about a year before this 3-month stint with the Girl Scouts that I started to go into a downward slope with my eating choices. I have always loved to experiment. I started a journey towards veganism in 2011 and chose to focus on raw foods and superfoods. I truly felt my cells changing, my outlook changing, my emotions expanding. In 2011 and 2014 I went through rape experiences and I made a disconnect from my body. My sensitivity was numbed, damaged. I started to eat animal products as a way of perhaps bringing myself down to earth, and I also was ACTIVELY ignoring the Truth of my Spirit.
I found myself making choices that hurt me. That further disconnected me from my own soul's truth. I found myself gaining weight, feeling bad. I felt fear - the fear of the animals I was eating who had lived their whole lives locked up in cages in the dark, forced to wade through the feces of their brothers and sisters.
And my friend she was in the barn, and she was just a tiny little one, she was 6 weeks old, and she was subject to the most atrocious of fates. It is unacceptable. And it demands justice. There will be peace when there is justice, and justice demands peace. And it must be understood.
I found myself there, then, a year and a few months later, standing on the ground of Camp Laughing Waters, feeling like I was up to my eyeballs in mud.
It was like a braking point. I could see it. I could see it, yet there was nothing I could do. I made a commitment to stay there the whole summer. I would do just that.
I got a bad stomach ache the second day from the water that tasted like it literally just came out of a fracking well. It just got worse and worse from there. I noticed girls between the ages of 6 and 12 saying their stomachs hurt, and I immediately suspected the water or the food. But the other staff members would say, "They're just pretending. It's homesickness."
I wanted to do something. I felt so powerless.
How could that water that literally made me feel like I might die not be the cause of at least a few of those stomach aches? I wondered in awe how the other staff members weren't feeling it.
As the time went on, it was all I could do not to give up completely. I spent most of the time resting and I just felt like my whole soul was glued to the floor.
After I left that summer, I just couldn't rest. I couldn't relax. I couldn't heal. Nothing felt right. Even last year, the effects were still weighing on me. I didn't even remember why I felt so powerless, so angry. I just did. Now in retrospect of course, I can see it was the outright rejection of my Soul's Own Truth that put me through it.
I know that we all have the power to make a difference. That is what the Girl Scouts is all about. Don't ignore this post. Don't go back to sleep.
All I want from this post is that those reading it understand the powerful effect that the food and water we put into our body has on our entire system - mind, body, and soul. Maybe you are in a position to make a difference. If so, do.
If you are looking for resources for your friends and family and yourself, please find "Chocolate Revolution" By Anna Suvarora on Amazon for Kindle. There are also tons of other amazing resources available in for eating healthy, moving to plant-based, eating organic, and the importance of eating sustainably for the health of the planet. Forks Over Knives documentary. The China Study if you like hard facts and reading big studies.
20.10.17
Moving
Not sure what I want to write, I just want to process the energies of last night's healing circle with Archangel Michael and write my honest perspective and thoughts for the first time in forever.
It's easy to take a victimhood stance, and these days everyone seems to be encouraging everyone else to do it. Why is that? Because when you are in "victim land" you want more to join you there. "Misery loves company" is not just said because it rhymes. It's true.
The opposite is interesting. When you take an empowerment stance and speak the truth, you are okay with being independent. It's cool when you see eye to eye with people, but it's also cool to disagree. We are not supposed to just sit here and be polite and nice and protect everyone's feelings.
In this day and age when social media is used to re-write old scripts over and over and over until you have lost the passion of your own original point of view, it is more necessary than ever to speak the truth. In actuality it's always been necessary but DAMN is it now because it's much more rare or so it seems.
But this isn't the only thing I want to talk about. But these are thoughts that have been bubbling around on the inside of me for the past several years and after last night's session with Michael they finally received the permission to come float to the surface and be expressed.
We really have an atrophy of our sense of identity here. As a spiritual healer and teacher, I see this as a deeper invitation from Spirit to embrace, embody, express and live our higher identity as Light/Spirit/Love.
It's easy to take a victimhood stance, and these days everyone seems to be encouraging everyone else to do it. Why is that? Because when you are in "victim land" you want more to join you there. "Misery loves company" is not just said because it rhymes. It's true.
The opposite is interesting. When you take an empowerment stance and speak the truth, you are okay with being independent. It's cool when you see eye to eye with people, but it's also cool to disagree. We are not supposed to just sit here and be polite and nice and protect everyone's feelings.
In this day and age when social media is used to re-write old scripts over and over and over until you have lost the passion of your own original point of view, it is more necessary than ever to speak the truth. In actuality it's always been necessary but DAMN is it now because it's much more rare or so it seems.
But this isn't the only thing I want to talk about. But these are thoughts that have been bubbling around on the inside of me for the past several years and after last night's session with Michael they finally received the permission to come float to the surface and be expressed.
We really have an atrophy of our sense of identity here. As a spiritual healer and teacher, I see this as a deeper invitation from Spirit to embrace, embody, express and live our higher identity as Light/Spirit/Love.
Dear Sacred Woman
Dear Sacred Woman,
You are not a crazy bitch.
You are not a stupid whore.
You are not useless, worthless or dumb.
You.
Are beautiful. Powerful. Sacred.
Your value is beyond measure. You are more precious than gold.
You are the worth of the stars and the moon in the night sky.
Your soul is light.
Sacred Woman.
You are everything.
You are not a crazy bitch.
You are not a stupid whore.
You are not useless, worthless or dumb.
You.
Are beautiful. Powerful. Sacred.
Your value is beyond measure. You are more precious than gold.
You are the worth of the stars and the moon in the night sky.
Your soul is light.
Sacred Woman.
You are everything.
14.10.17
We are Source
We are here directly from the Source. There is no other way and there never will be any other way that we manifest here on any density of the Universe. There are many densities and all are Source manifest - mineral, vegetable, animal, ethereal, and into the higher densities.
We are all here directly from Source. There are no shortcuts, no gatekeepers, no purgatories. We are whole, perfect, unique, and powerful beings directly from Source.
Source consciousness = Our consciousness.
There is a direct line of communication happening always.
The sun never goes away, even if the earth turns the other way.
~
Water, ocean, blue, water, ocean, blue, water, ocean, blue, water, ocean, blue.
I am a mermaid swimming in you.
Water ocean blue.
We are all here directly from Source. There are no shortcuts, no gatekeepers, no purgatories. We are whole, perfect, unique, and powerful beings directly from Source.
Source consciousness = Our consciousness.
There is a direct line of communication happening always.
The sun never goes away, even if the earth turns the other way.
~
Water, ocean, blue, water, ocean, blue, water, ocean, blue, water, ocean, blue.
I am a mermaid swimming in you.
Water ocean blue.
17.11.13
Doing What Makes my Soul Sing
I am the Fruity Muse. I am a writer. I am rediscovering this, and I have decided to pursue it full-flame with complete determination, intention, and allowing. I am not putting pressure on myself about this anymore, and I am not concerned with the outcome, or about accomplishing anything. I am taking it one day at a time, practicing writing and being a writer.
Since I was four I knew my purpose was to be a writer. Since I was in fourth grade my mom told me she knew I was a writer, and that it would be a hugely significant focus in my life. I've always wanted to write an amazing book, or three, or ten, or fifty, and I've always remembered, after time and time again of forgetting, trying too hard, or making excuses, that this is what makes my heart and soul sing.
So how did I remember? Well, I'll start with how I burned myself out a few weeks ago. A few weeks ago, I burned myself out. I decided that it was time to begin working on putting together my first book of poems, and I had this belief that I needed to do way more in a day than was even enjoyable. So I typed, typed, typed for two days and I got really tired from being on the computer and looking at those poems from a certain chapter in my life so much it made me hate them. But I kept going cause I knew other people didn't hate them, they were touched, they loved them, and I needed to give this to them. But I just stopped for a while on it cause it stopped being fun. But...
The other day, which was my mom's 50th birthday, my grandma, her mom, had her first ever art reception where her art was being displayed at the Shaler Library on Mt. Royal Blvd. It was a big deal and we were all really excited. So I went there after this awesome meal we made for my mom with whole plant foods and and a nice little party for her where we gave her gifts. When I got there I was happy to see my grandma and some people and I felt energized being in a library, and I also met some very amazing people and connected with old friends. I kept getting the same question, over and over: "What do you do?" or: "What do you want to do?" As in, with my life. And at first I felt annoyed or flustered at the question, like, who are you to question me so, I don't need to analyze my life for you...But the more it got asked, the quicker the answer kept coming up: Write. And soon I was having lengthy discussions about creative flow, and someone told me, "If that is what you love to do, then do it. Write." Just practice every day, it's not all frilly-nilly, it's a practice, and it won't always be like this magical wind coming out of me, or a big deal, but in paying attention to the little things, it does become a magical wind coming through me, onto the pages, and I learn to appreciate myself, and I learn to love.
Since I was four I knew my purpose was to be a writer. Since I was in fourth grade my mom told me she knew I was a writer, and that it would be a hugely significant focus in my life. I've always wanted to write an amazing book, or three, or ten, or fifty, and I've always remembered, after time and time again of forgetting, trying too hard, or making excuses, that this is what makes my heart and soul sing.
So how did I remember? Well, I'll start with how I burned myself out a few weeks ago. A few weeks ago, I burned myself out. I decided that it was time to begin working on putting together my first book of poems, and I had this belief that I needed to do way more in a day than was even enjoyable. So I typed, typed, typed for two days and I got really tired from being on the computer and looking at those poems from a certain chapter in my life so much it made me hate them. But I kept going cause I knew other people didn't hate them, they were touched, they loved them, and I needed to give this to them. But I just stopped for a while on it cause it stopped being fun. But...
The other day, which was my mom's 50th birthday, my grandma, her mom, had her first ever art reception where her art was being displayed at the Shaler Library on Mt. Royal Blvd. It was a big deal and we were all really excited. So I went there after this awesome meal we made for my mom with whole plant foods and and a nice little party for her where we gave her gifts. When I got there I was happy to see my grandma and some people and I felt energized being in a library, and I also met some very amazing people and connected with old friends. I kept getting the same question, over and over: "What do you do?" or: "What do you want to do?" As in, with my life. And at first I felt annoyed or flustered at the question, like, who are you to question me so, I don't need to analyze my life for you...But the more it got asked, the quicker the answer kept coming up: Write. And soon I was having lengthy discussions about creative flow, and someone told me, "If that is what you love to do, then do it. Write." Just practice every day, it's not all frilly-nilly, it's a practice, and it won't always be like this magical wind coming out of me, or a big deal, but in paying attention to the little things, it does become a magical wind coming through me, onto the pages, and I learn to appreciate myself, and I learn to love.
24.10.13
How to Eat a Raw Foods Breakfast
If you are one of the many who want to change their lifestyle to one that is health-promoting, and the natural diet that accompanies it, I recommend starting by eating a meal of fruit for breakfast.
If you have never eaten a meal of fruit, you probably don't know that while fruit is very high in volume, it is considerably lower in calories than almost everything else, besides vegetables. So if you are going to eat enough to be satisfied for the next 2-3 hours, you need to eat enough. For example, if you are going to eat a meal of bananas, eating one banana is going to leave you hungry in an hour. But if you can eat 3-4 to as many as you like, you will be satiated and feel good until lunchtime comes around. If you are more active, you may want to work your way up to eating around 6 to 10 bananas for a meal. Everyone is different, but just to put it in perspective: a banana is around 100 calories. If you want to eat another kind of fruit, I recommend eating at least 400 to 500 calories for breakfast, more if you like. So for another example, apples: an apple is around 100 calories as well, so you could eat maybe 4 or 5 of these or combine two of these with three bananas, since they tend to digest well together. Remember that the simpler the meal, the better you will feel.
It's okay if you also try it a different way, if you find you cannot eat enough fruit at first to satiate you: try starting your breakfast with as much fruit as you like, and then eating whatever you would normally eat afterwards. Your ability to eat a larger amount of fruit and your mindset about it are directly correlated. It's like yoga; you have to develop flexibility in your belly and in your mind to eat this way. Enjoy your fruits.
And of course, you can also eat sprouts, and whatever plant-based delights your body desires! The guidance I am clearly giving is eat only foods that come from a healthy, green, chloryphill rich plant! Eat good energy and you will be good energy. There is a simplicity to this way of the ancient Essenes, of which the image of Jesus the peaceful dove carrying the olive branch flows.
If you have never eaten a meal of fruit, you probably don't know that while fruit is very high in volume, it is considerably lower in calories than almost everything else, besides vegetables. So if you are going to eat enough to be satisfied for the next 2-3 hours, you need to eat enough. For example, if you are going to eat a meal of bananas, eating one banana is going to leave you hungry in an hour. But if you can eat 3-4 to as many as you like, you will be satiated and feel good until lunchtime comes around. If you are more active, you may want to work your way up to eating around 6 to 10 bananas for a meal. Everyone is different, but just to put it in perspective: a banana is around 100 calories. If you want to eat another kind of fruit, I recommend eating at least 400 to 500 calories for breakfast, more if you like. So for another example, apples: an apple is around 100 calories as well, so you could eat maybe 4 or 5 of these or combine two of these with three bananas, since they tend to digest well together. Remember that the simpler the meal, the better you will feel.
It's okay if you also try it a different way, if you find you cannot eat enough fruit at first to satiate you: try starting your breakfast with as much fruit as you like, and then eating whatever you would normally eat afterwards. Your ability to eat a larger amount of fruit and your mindset about it are directly correlated. It's like yoga; you have to develop flexibility in your belly and in your mind to eat this way. Enjoy your fruits.
And of course, you can also eat sprouts, and whatever plant-based delights your body desires! The guidance I am clearly giving is eat only foods that come from a healthy, green, chloryphill rich plant! Eat good energy and you will be good energy. There is a simplicity to this way of the ancient Essenes, of which the image of Jesus the peaceful dove carrying the olive branch flows.
3.10.13
I think.....
I would go to let to find a way to fly to dance in a cosmic romance with myself.
I like it. I like myself. I am really becoming in a real, loving relationship with me. I really am loving me, accepting me, forgiving me! I love me!
I love, in general. Sometimes you just wanna give your love in a small or large gesture, to another person, and you can...Sometimes the person will receive lovingly, gratefully, and sometimes they won't. And it doesn't matter. We can only control our own mental directions. I think it's good to feel the other person, but not to allow yourself to feel lesser because of their insecurities. Our lives are created out of our own individual preferences, and everybody has different ones. And that's good, I like it that way. Your life is yours to create. Isn't that wonderful?
Wouldn't it be nice if we could just release all of our resistance?
Wouldn't it be nice if we could just heal and feel really good right now?
Wouldn't it be nice if this were all completely possible?
Isn't it amazing....because, it is....
Life is meant to be easy. I am learning this, in my own way. I like my way. It's perfect for me, and it's fun, and it's amazingly beautiful. Your way is good too - it's just different from my way. And that's good. That's why I tell people I believe that everyone's truth is going to be different, because, if it weren't, there would be no diversity, no fun, no excitement no creation. And that kind of world is not only undesirable, it's completely impossible.
So enjoy the crazy! Basically.
I'm enjoying some avocado right now. The avos have been pretty watery lately, but I like that- less fattyness. I'm listening to some wonderful cleansing sounds from the (almost) always helpful youtube. I like it. My dad just walked into the room, breathing huffily as always. LOL! he is so funny! He gets frustrated, and has trouble truly expressing it. If you want something immediately, ask for it. If you don't, then there's nothing for you to worry about. Isn't it wonderful?
I think so.
I like it. I like myself. I am really becoming in a real, loving relationship with me. I really am loving me, accepting me, forgiving me! I love me!
I love, in general. Sometimes you just wanna give your love in a small or large gesture, to another person, and you can...Sometimes the person will receive lovingly, gratefully, and sometimes they won't. And it doesn't matter. We can only control our own mental directions. I think it's good to feel the other person, but not to allow yourself to feel lesser because of their insecurities. Our lives are created out of our own individual preferences, and everybody has different ones. And that's good, I like it that way. Your life is yours to create. Isn't that wonderful?
Wouldn't it be nice if we could just release all of our resistance?
Wouldn't it be nice if we could just heal and feel really good right now?
Wouldn't it be nice if this were all completely possible?
Isn't it amazing....because, it is....
Life is meant to be easy. I am learning this, in my own way. I like my way. It's perfect for me, and it's fun, and it's amazingly beautiful. Your way is good too - it's just different from my way. And that's good. That's why I tell people I believe that everyone's truth is going to be different, because, if it weren't, there would be no diversity, no fun, no excitement no creation. And that kind of world is not only undesirable, it's completely impossible.
So enjoy the crazy! Basically.
I'm enjoying some avocado right now. The avos have been pretty watery lately, but I like that- less fattyness. I'm listening to some wonderful cleansing sounds from the (almost) always helpful youtube. I like it. My dad just walked into the room, breathing huffily as always. LOL! he is so funny! He gets frustrated, and has trouble truly expressing it. If you want something immediately, ask for it. If you don't, then there's nothing for you to worry about. Isn't it wonderful?
I think so.
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